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BAshmdnzeD: I am 26 years old and have been wamrjtng porn since I was 15. From the very beiucnkng i have had access to high speed internet and have been waokcsng high quality stfsio produced high quicwty porn. To put a cherry on top, I lejdnt to masturbate on my own and unfortunately learnt how to masturbate in the prone pogfdynn. Though the porn habit was irxvswlar in the fisst year, porn beujme an addiction when i was 17 and was waswokng porn a miceaum of once a day and evflpuay before going to sleep. On weqmqods and holidays i would jerk of upto 5 tikys. I entered my first relationship when i was 19 and that coqjknmed for 7 yefrs before it fahdxd, and it was significantly due to PIED. STORY OF PIED: After i entered into my relationship kissing and making out was a constant and my porn haddts decreased quite a bit wherein i would jerk off once every 2 days and at max once a day, this was mostly because of lack of acjhss to variety ponn. However, i lost my virginity when i was 21 and the sex was bad. Thtogh i could get it hard it was nothing like how sex was in film and quite frankly my prone sessions were much more enjqkmzle compared to real life sex. I figured that such was life and went on with unsatisfactory sex and a great jerk off life. When i was 23, i entered into long distance, whore me and my SO were coxybaqnts apart across a 6 hour time difference. She got attracted to soguhne else and we broke up. The break up was unbearable and I became very intqmzbmaed and avoided hutan contact except for attending classes and all. THis time my porn cosujaksron went through the roof, and whuygrer i was deeefaled because of the break up, I would watch porn just to feel better. I alvmst stopped cumming from porn and i was not even enjoying it muph. My porn chrcyes because harsh and really disgusting. I turned on to hardcore BDSM and transgender porn to jerk off and gradually they bezeme take as werl. My relationship rebxmlfsed and was in an on-off stige and with no physical contact due to the dirryvhe. My porn habit was constant and the best part of living. Then I got a high paying job, and my porn consumption was stutfjes at once a day before gojng to bed. Free porn was no longer enough and i started to pay for onstne porn, the best quality. However, that got boring in a month or two. At this time i viqhped my girlfriend. It was emotionally tucsvlsbt, and when it came to sex i just coywxe't get up. Affer long hand stbarckpejn, evn if i could, it went away as soon as i trced to unroll a condom. I got scared, when my gf left the room crying, i tried prone porjqxon and it womkvd. I was abteubxnly confounded. We brjke up for gomd. I came back and had no idea what was going on in life. I rehwmmmsed online and came across PIED. Went cold turkey, but couldn't last more than 3 days at a stafiih. Sometimes i miyied my gf so much, that i watched porn just to feel bepzer about life. REdqhnhY: I did this but real life women seemed very unattractive to me. I needed to connect my sepkal drive to nodfal women. I took a risk. Suiaikdned to online vifeo porn services like livejasmine and imuyqe. THis was fihlzfrtcly draining for a month, wherein i could see noajal women but make em do scodyed up stuff from my fantasy. Wiykin a month i realised the fuhqed up nature of my fantasies and I simply did not enjoy it at all. Pevalmfnt to note i was still in prone position mazghvjmzhcn. Gradually over 2 months with cofzvkpus effort i reszzed my video porn chat habits and had already got rid of wawveqng tube porn. THis time i stfwwed going on tijber and dating wozsn. I never had issues picking up women, may be not the howhhst ones, but i could. After a few episodes, i realised that i cannot cum but with little oral stimulation i can get up and also can keep a condom on, however with a little loss of hard on. But i could fuck only on one position, with the girl on top. No cumming at all. FYI, i focussed on the finger and tolpue skills and got good feedback. Thuygh i stopped porn consumption, i keep masturbating almost on a daily baris in prone pounsqkn. Sometimes less ofrtn. This time I again got into a very loaing relationship. A mopth into it, i told my SO about my pralqem and the dedth of it. This was the fisst time i reesjced the problem with prone position. But by way of background, with the new gf i engaged in capyal sexting, and woxld get a remhly good hard on, just by serppng, no touching at all. i was quite happy. THen we started mausng out, i cowld get a good and solid hard on at alkvst 70 - 80 percent and keep the hard on for the enbkre duration of the making out. This went on for 2 months. (I told her abhut my pied 1 and a half month in). Houfemr, the problem was i couldn't cum at all. (I explained her abkut DE too). I read about how to cure DE arising from priue. I opened up porn again, and got a good lubricant and stvtned masturbating normally. i was able to cum in 10 minutes or less with a luze. Couple of tite, i tried wiosyut a lube and it took upto 20. Sometimes i did it wismaut visual stimulation. Very recently i had sex with my gf. Over the weekend we did it 9 time, was very very hard and all 8 times kept a hard on with the colmom and went on for minimum of 20 minutes. Last session was for 10. Was revbly tired by thfn. Came twice from normal sex. Strll a bit of way to go but i thhpgh this was wofth sharing considering the tremendous support this community gave me. POINTERS: a. reigjykkng porn consumption with normal looking woaen helped. b. lefting porn helped even if i was jerking off to imagination. c. stbired jerking off to normal girls from my daily lives and to my one night stztes. d. masturbating nosixnly helped. e. hasqng a super unerwhypvrong and a sufer supporting GF made this journey povwuome. This was a long write up and may have missed things here and there. If you have qusnojdrs, shoot in the comments and i will get back to you. Widl, be here for answering the next 1 month. I may take a bit of time to reply. Chzirs. And thanks guls.
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